HOW YOU FEEL
12 THE HANGED MAN
Description: You feel a little confused and perhaps fearful because you sense or know that there is someone or something you need to give up to be able to move on. It is an uncertain self-sacrifice, never always so clear, and you may not even know quite what or whom you should.
You’re in limbo, waiting for this moment of transition and passage from one phase of life to another, and you must be patient as a lot can be learned in deeper deliberation. Try looking at things from a different perspective, one focused on the spiritual than the material. Follow your heart! It will be worth it!
WHAT YOU WANT MOST19 THE SUN
Description: The Sun suggests that what you want the most is some joy and pleasure in your life. This may have followed a period of difficult challenges or some time in Limbo, perhaps inactivity. The Sun heralds an ending to difficulties, bringing on a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, a time of pleasure and perhaps the possibility of good news.
Be it because of someone else or because of you, you’ll have a new lease on life and perhaps love is on the way!
YOUR FEARS09 THE HERMIT
Description: The Hermit suggests you don’t want to be on your own and you’re afraid of your own loneliness. The problem is, you simply don’t know what to do. Take the time to relax and you will find the answer, but don’t make decisions hastily.
This may mean taking a step back to recharge emotional or physical batteries, and reflect on the road ahead. There will be a satisfying conclusion if patient, and you needn’t suffer by yourself. If you need help, ask!
WHAT IS GOING FOR YOU01 THE MAGICIAN
Description: If considering something new - be it a new enterprise or relationship - you will find the self-belief, confidence, and ingenuity to make it a success. Make use of your talents, originality and inventiveness! You are in control of your own thoughts and the ruler of your own reality.
This may be a financial success, but it could be that someone important is coming into your life that can be beneficial: A counselor, friend, boyfriend or business partner.
WHAT IS AGAINST YOU04 THE EMPEROR
Description: You may be over-ambitious at this time and success could be just out of your reach for a while. Are you being assertive enough? Positive enough? Or are you being too aggressive to no avail? Don’t misuse your authority.
Considered the Father Figure of the Tarot, the Emperor is about advice, wisdom, authority, and grounding, but he can get carried away by fad and fancy, and nothing slips by his scrutiny. If you have requested help from a strong and successful man, don’t let him bully you either. He will either help or leave you to get on with things by yourself.
THE LIKELY OUTCOME17 THE STAR
Description: This is a time of good luck and fortune, perhaps after a period of struggle. This could be good health after illness or the arrival of good fortune that will give you a new zest for life. Ultimately, The Star symbolizes good luck!
If you’ve been feeling blue, The Star suggests change and you will soon be filled with satisfaction and happiness. Be patient, good news is on the way.
It had become painfully obvious - though that could have been the roller rink birthday party wounds speaking - that things hadn’t exactly been right since he had come back from the other side, a little bit louder, a little more ruder, and a lot less willing to be a welcome mad for anyone who wanted to step on him like he had been a long-dead welcome mat for anyone who wanted to step on him like a background piece to their lives. It was as much of a change in attitude as it had been a change in form, personality skewing just like his appearance had, which could have been seen as a renewal of self, but that just wasn’t how things worked to his knowledge; he couldn’t just pull himself together without an outside force and while he knew well enough Lily had been the catalyst for his return, it was an ever-pressing curiosity as to how.
If this wasn’t the San Francisco he belonged in, a member of the Sparrow Academy as led by Sir Reginald Hargreeves and not the Umbrella Academy as every single sign pointed to, then where was it? If this Sir Reginald Hargreeves, the Monocle no matter which way the universe was sliced, wasn’t the one that had founded the Sparrow Academy, then where was he? And, in turn, if these weren’t the siblings he recognized, this Umbrella Academy fell into the bodies of others, where were they? It made sense to believe that he had been pulled from somewhere in time and space to this place, to this body, from another timeline, fit into piece not unlike a square peg in a circular hole, but at the same time, it left him to wonder just what was in store.
So, he had brought out the cards, a vestigial feeling in his bones suggesting that, even if they didn’t help, they could at least point him in the right direction or confirm what he had been feeling; that this was a brand new slate to be someone he hadn’t been before - be it in embracing the Machiavellian cunning he felt run deep, brought on from a world different from the one Ben Hargreeves had grown up in with the Umbrella Academy or entertaining those things that had gone to the wayside while Henry had been caught up in the woes of his emerging super powers, something that turning his back on obviously hadn’t helped as much as it had destroyed.
There had only been one question considered as he read through the cards, stopping to tap his fingers on The Emperor as he considered the meaning of such a draw in such a position: The Father Figure of the Tarot, wise and authoritative through experience, and all too reminiscent of an individual it seemed the Umbrella Academy could have been better off without and the Sparrow Academy seemed to thrive in to different extremes. His fingers danced over it for a second, picking it up as if there would be something more read from the tactile component, thoughts harkening back to the rather one-sided conversation he had with the ghostly apparition of his father.
Sir Reginald Hargreeves may have been dead - that much was certain - but surely that didn’t mean he couldn’t readily meddle in the affairs of his children, however many of them he had throughout all the strings that could have created their universe and those parallel to it; and Henry took that into consideration as he set the card back down.
It was best not to let him stand in the way of happiness, so Henry wouldn't let him.
But he would have to be patient.