six card spread
BINGO: (619): microwave minutes are longer than normal minutes.
"what is next?"
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HOW YOU FEEL
16 THE TOWERDescription: Change can be radical and momentous and you feel that the disruption and sweeping change you are going through or fear that you are going to go through will be catastrophic; but while this card implies a sense of unease, you need to recognize that such upheaval can force new directions that you never dreamed possible. It is simply foundational, groundbreaking change.
You may have wanted this change, but as is often the case, the solution isn't always as we expect. Change is a normal part of life that one must embrace, an always constant that can sometimes strike fear for it means we must abandon the truths we have known prior, but the old ways are no longer useful and you must find another set to take their place. Be positive!WHAT YOU WANT MOST
15 THE DEVILDescription: You may be feeling a sense of entrapment, emptiness, and lack of fulfillment in your life and what you want at this time, you can't have. Just like the forbidden fruit, this only makes it all the more tempting and desired and, no matter how hard you try to, you just can't seem to shake the feeling of wanting to indulge in something more.
This could lead you down a rabbit hole if you go for something knowing full well you can, but it would be a bad choice and you'd be doing it for all the wrong reasons. Yes, you want passion and gratification, but be careful where your lack of control over your actions or urges may take you.YOUR FEARS
0 THE FOOLDescription: You are afraid of making the wrong decisions, especially following such change-inspiring events and at the start of a new journey where you may find optimism and freedom from your usual constraints. There is warning here that foolhardy, impetuous, however courageous as they may seem, actions could lead to major problems in the future.
Perhaps you feel that you don't have control over a situation, either personal or professional, and you may feel unable to complete a task or stay in a current relationship, fearing the consequence of your actions. Perhaps you know deep down that what you want isn't really a good thing.WHAT IS GOING FOR YOU
20 JUDGEMENTDescription: You are coming to a signifiant point in your life where you must start to evaluate yourself in order to understand where you are now and what you need to do in order to grow. You are in a period of awakening with a clearer idea of what you need to change and how you need to be true to yourself and your needs - be it making small changes in your daily life or huge changes that have reaching effects to those around you.
The placement of this card points to brand new potential and an opportunity which, once given, must not be ignored. This is a a moment that could affected the rest of your life and, should you follow, you will enjoy success and the results of past efforts. The events will pick up pace and the outcome will be far quicker than expected.WHAT IS AGAINST YOU
5 JUSTICEDescription: There will come a time where you will be judged and that judgement will be made fairly and accordingly by the decisions you have made in the past. This may bring you relief if you have been wronged, but if you have wronged, this serves as a warning and things, unfortunately, aren't going your way.
Even if you are in the right or the victim of foul play, you won't win this one, so take care of whose advice you take and beware of being motivated solely by self-interest. Truth must come to pass, so be fair in your spoken truths and fair in your deeds.THE LIKELY OUTCOME
21 THE WORLDDescription: Fulfillment, success, and conclusion are near at hand - be it the successful outcome of a venture or satisfaction in a relationship. Your efforts are starting to pay off as you complete a major milestone in your life and have built the resilience to withstand the challenges ahead.
Whatever events that lead you to this point, no matter how difficult they have been, it is a culmination of these that will lead to greater wholeness and unity.
“What is next?”
“What is next?” He couldn’t say the reading was the one he had wanted, but it was the reading that he ultimately got with a few shuffles of the deck, Henry staring down at the drawn splay of tarot cards while the microwave hummed in the background with something to eat in such late hours. It was a consistent drone that he was easily able to block out under the duress of The Tower, struck down and breaking at the deepest cores of its build and foundation with such swift change as a strike of lightning, and almost nerve-brushing temptation of The Devil, crawling about his skin with the possibility of throwing caution to the wind to get after what he might have wanted rather than playing second fiddle to the worry, anxiety, and doubt that, no matter the power he held, still lingered.
But then that was foolish, wasn’t it? Ignoring those things? The cards had suggested as much in the rest of the reading that followed, foolhardy and courageously blind action, perhaps willfully ignorant of just how badly things could go, sure to lead to complication along the way if the inclusion of Justice was to be taken into consideration - something Henry was inclined to do when the card had found itself in the same place over a number of readings rather than just this one, rightside up and upside down. It left a sour feeling in his stomach, something akin to butterflies that were nothing so uplifting as one might have hoped and instead brought with them an almost sickening anxiety among the late night daydreams of just what might have happened if he was so impulsive.
Weather the storm, endure it intelligently - fairly and without hurting others - and maybe he wouldn’t feel so empty at the end of it all: That was all the cards had to say and it was up to Henry where he ultimately applied this, if he decided to at all instead of scrapping it entirely - not that it was so easy to turn his back on something he knew by his very fingertips, by the very abysmal fount he controlled, and the ever-present marking on his arm to be real.
It was in his own dilemma - his own indecisiveness - that he found doubt, unsure of whether the reading was more to do with this new source of otherworldly power or something far more personal - matters of the heart - that tended to rest heavy on his shoulders, perhaps even digging deep into his chest where it laid such seeds of hope and opposing doubt, even when he attempted to brush it off and ignore it. It happened many times, over and over again, attempts to branch out turning into reasons, warranted or not, to withdraw again, becoming a recluse after moments of courage instilled such paralyzing fear of rejection in a pattern that he could readily see with some thought. It was a cycle - one hard to break and applicable to plenty in a life that was no longer normal.
One thing stood true though: He knew he had never felt that way about magic.
Unfortunately, a bunch of black and gold faced cards - no way in a million years was he going to step into the use of the Inficio Aquilus once he had done the research to find out just what might have been special about that specific set - weren’t so inspiring of rash and reckless action, especially when they seemed to warn against it in so many ways; and Henry swept them up, stacking the deck once more before boxing it again and leaving it on the drafting table used far more for readings like this than it had been any artistic inspirations of late.
It was only then that he had heard a beep, long and drawn out, as the microwave went off, brow furrowing as he looked down at his watch. Truthfully, it hadn’t felt like he would have beat the clock, but apparently, microwaves must have run on a different timespan or the mark had struck again, bending time just that little bit to give Henry a few minutes more of contemplation.